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Older than 39, younger than 40.

I don't really find either appealing. Can I trade in my ticket for a trip around The Kimberley?

I couldn't say, out of a real lack of experience! I do think the Blue Mountains is an incredible trip for lush life everywhere - and is extremely accessible. Melbs is a beautiful city, and far western NSW is bloody awesome for accessible desert areas - but goodness, there's so much more to see out there than just what I've looked at!

Diving is good, as long as you don't do the restaurant thing to ruin it. See? one problem solved already. In fact, I suggest taking your friend diving.

(question continued from a second post): cont. got upset with the other waiter (middle eastern guys) because he was just grinning while we were fighting. then i smashed my diving watch. (i dont dive) and stormed out. btw...nor one chinese person in sight If I'm interpreting your dream correctly, clearly you need to find your friend and not open a restaurant with her, of any kind. Do this very quickly. Run, don't walk!

How about a story then? There's a highway out of town, four lanes divided by a decent sized median strip. Today I drove home after a little shopping, and saw the remains of an accident - two cars had a head-on. Strange thing, of course, that it happened in the middle of two lanes coming into town, and perhaps 100m from the nearest turn-off. Even stranger was the car traveling the wrong way had another car that'd rammed its arse. Two cars, traveling the wrong way down two lanes of a highway not only managed to collect someone coming towards them, but each other. I wonder what the story behind that was...

Dana Sibera is me - Lenina Huxley is Sandra Bullock's character from Demolition Man, a strange little movie I both adore and cringe at, but comes out positively in total - there's much about the character I identify with.

Yes. strong strong yes - not sure if it's something I trained myself to do or just the nature of things, but yes!

I do a few kinds - I suppose there are three mental kinda and one physical. First and foremost is emptying my mind of everything and experiencing nought but consciousness. It's a nice easy one, happens kind of automatically for me, and when I pushed it further to look from above my consciousness down over the rest of my awareness (a kind of Turiya I suppose) I found such bliss from mere existing it changed my life. I'll also meditate mindfully, being aware of everything around me, what it is and what it isn't - the emptiness of all things becomes apparent, and my perceptions become just a little shifted - Meditating like this over time can become almost overwhelming with sensation even in a quiet room in this quiet country town at 11pm. There's *always* something to perceive, either in my own body or in the room about me. I suppose what that has in common with my first type above, is that I'm aware both times of precisely When I am, in time, this one moment - and what parts of my life that come in & out of my experience aren't around. Third mental type is on love. I pick a person I know and feel compassion for them, love, respect - All good things. I don't tend to last long with this, it kind of overjoys me. It doesn't have to be someone close - best it's not or I'd run out of people to love :). Might be an acquaintance, someone I see rarely - or even someone who's stayed in my mind that I saw for a few moments last week - All good, all good practice for lovin'. Physically, I also carry over heart rhythm meditation from my panic/anxiety days. This comes from a horrid 1980s television show I'm sure I could remember the name of if I looked hard enough, with a ninja who could slow his breathing and heart rate down so he looked dead - I thought that was terrifically cool!. I looked up a little info on it, tried some things myself to slow my heart rate and breathing, and found it calmed me *immensely* - probably because I needed to be totally absorbed (mindful!) in the task and nothing else, otherwise my heartrate would leap up to normal again. 1 breath per minute and 28bpm heartrate is the best I've managed, and for someone not terrifically fit, I think that's doing OK. It's a lovely slowed place to be in - slowed in mind and body. Of course, I mix all the above around sometimes (most times?) and probably do a few others from time to time - They serve me well, and those four stick out strongly as consciously selected forms.

Try reversing things, be the person that clicks with them as someone they want to talk to more - and truly fall into that. I've found three wonderful new friends this year by doing just that.

Priorities, mainly.

Once, I could have given you dozens of those, and the more I thought the more I'd come up with something a little deeper - If I trusted you enough, ironically, I might have told you my darkest sometime too - but they'd be just symptoms of the source, the fontis that all the others I've known have come through. Disconnectedness, withdrawal, The Wall, guarded love, isolation, separation, an opposite to unconditional love. From that grows mistrust, suspicion, ego and othering. Once we've othered our fellow humans it's all over, until we can put aside that (very strong!) instinct to continue being apart, and trust for no reason at all.

I could give a dozen different answers if I were asked this question at a dozen different times. For today though, I'll run with 'Biology is fascinating, and big, and acts over unimaginably wide stretches of time, and here we are just humans with our dogs, cats and horses. There's a lot more interesting out there, like say... Dinosaurs!'. Also they're cool - seriously, fricken dinosaurs!

Online is my exhibition space. It's free, enjoy!.

I'm not sure this question was really aimed at me, it seems a reply to an answer of mine that I can't figure out - but that's OK!. I can't give the easy answer of Do X, Then Y Will Come To You, but I can give this; If you were working in an ideal job, and dating or otherwise involved with someone you cared deeply for, you'd be working at what you're passionate about, and giving love freely & comfortably. Until then, it's OK to skip the waiting for employment and relationship bit, and jump straight to the working and loving people. Sure, you won't have the money and the fucking, but it's not like they're the best part of either, really. Get in practice so when you're noticed, picked up, selected, nabbed, or otherwise taken, you can do all the better! (unless you want to be a banker, and then you'd be all about money AND fucking people over ... but I get the feeling you're not ;)

CZ

Oh wow - I hadn't, no. Thanks!

It's gotta have sinus surgery in, no doubt about it...

Still the same as http://www.formspring.me/nanoraptor/q/552264610 :)